Thinking of you and your precious angel  / Jo-Ann~mom Of Angel~Lauren Pacenta
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More stuff from the front page  / Robin Wessel (cousin)


















There’s a special angel in heaven
That is a part of me.
It is not where we wanted him right now,
But where God wanted him to be.
He was here just a moment,
Like a night-time shooting star.
And though he is in heaven,
He isn’t very far.
He touched the hearts of many,
Like only an angel can do.
We would have held him every minute,
If the end we only knew.
So we send this special message,
To heaven up above.
Please take care of our angel,
And send him all our love.

author unknown 












We thought of you today,
but that was nothing new.
We thought of you yesterday
and days before that too.
We think of you in silence,
we often speak your name,
now all we have is memories,
and your picture in a frame.
YOUR MEMORY is our keepsake,
which we'll never part,
God has you in his keeping,
We have you in our heart. 







This teardrop stands for all the tears
We've shed since you've been gone.
The Cross portrays our faith that God
Will help us carry on.
The heart reflects the love you shared
With Family and Friends,
And we will hold you in our hearts
With love that never ends.
author unknown 



            





In Loving
Memory
Of

A Dear Son

Something will remind me
I never know just when,
It might be something someone says
And it all comes back again

The times we spent together
The happiness, the fun,
Once again I feel the pain
Of lfe without my Son

It's said that time's a healer
Im not sure this is true,
There's not a day goes by Son
That I don't cry for you. 











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Stuff from the front Page  / Robin Wessel (Cousin)

Daddy please don't look so sad,
Mommy please don't cry.

Cause I am in the arms of Jesus
and he sings me lullabies.

Please try not to question God,
Don't think he is unkind.

Don't think he sent me to you,
and then he changed his mind.

You see, I am a special child,
and I am needed up above.

I am the special gift you gave him,
the product of your love.

I'll always be there with you,
so watch the sky at night.

Find the brightest star that gleaming,
that's my halos brilliant light.

You'll see me in the morning frost,
that mists your window pane.

That's me in the summer showers,
I'll be dancing in the rain.

When you feel a gentle breeze from the wind that blows That's me,
I’ll be there, a kiss on your nose.

When you see a child playing and your heart feels a little tug.
That's when I'll be there, giving your heart a hug.

So, Daddy Please don't look so sad, Mommy don't you cry.
I am in the arms of Jesus, and he sing me lullabies.

~Unknown~








Letter From Heaven












To my dearest family, some things I'd like to say.


But first of all, to let you know, that I arrived okay.


I'm writing this from heaven. Here I dwell with God above.


Here, there's no more tears of sadness;


Here is just eternal love.


*¤*


Please do not be unhappy just because I'm out of sight.


Remember that I am with you every morning, noon and night.


That day I had to leave you when my life on earth was through.


God picked me up and hugged me and He said, "I welcome you.


*¤*


It's good to have you back again,


you were missed while you were gone.


As for your dearest family, They'll be here later on.


I need you here badly, you're part of my plan.


There's so much that we have to do, to help our mortal man."


*¤*


God gave me a list of things, that he wished for me to do.


And foremost on the list, was to watch and care for you.


And when you lie in bed at night the day's chores put to flight.


God and I are closest to you....in the middle of the night.


*¤*


When you think of my life on earth, and all those loving years.


Because you are only human, they are bound to bring you tears.


But do not be afraid to cry: It does relieve the pain.


Remember there would be no flowers, unless there was some rain.


*¤*


I wish that I could tell you all that God has planned.


If I were to tell you, you wouldn't understand.


But one thing is for certain, though my life on earth is over.


I'm closer to you now, than I ever was before.


*¤*


There are many rocky roads ahead of you and many hills to climb;


But together we can do it by taking one day at a time.


It was always my philosophy and I'd like it for you too;


That as you give unto the world, the world will give to you.


*¤*


If you can help somebody who's in sorrow and pain;


Then you can say to God at night......"My day was not in vain."


And now I am contented....that my life was worthwhile.


Knowing as I passed along the way I made somebody smile.


*¤*


So if you meet somebody who is sad and feeling low;


Just lend a hand to pick him up, as on your way you go.


When you're walking down the street


and you've got me on your mind;


I'm walking in your footsteps only half a step behind.


*¤* 







FOR OUR FAMILY I LEFT BEHIND

I know it’s hard to understand

But it’s all part of a bigger plan

It’s alright and I’m okay

I’ve never seen such a pretty place

Still I’m sorry that I had to go away

Dry your tears now don’t you cry

You know I’ll always be close by

For all those years you helped me through

Now I’ll be the one looking out for you

I’ll be right here just close your eyes

Picture my face and I’ll make you smile

Speak my name and I’ll be there for you

I promise, cause that’s what angels do

We’ve shared so many special times

The memories dance through our minds

Just keep them close when we’re apart

And wrap them tightly in your heart

Cause that’s where joy
and healing have to start

Dry your tears now don’t you cry

You know I’ll always be close by

For all those years you helped me through

Now I’ll be the one looking out for you

I’ll be right here, just close your eyes

Picture my face and I’ll make you smile

Speak my name and I’ll be there for you

I promise, cause that’s what angels do



And when it's time for you to go....from that body to be free.


Remember you're not going.....you're coming here to me.


-----Author Unknown 

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Bereaved Parent's Wish List  / Robin Wessel (Cousin)

Bereaved Parent's Wish List

I wish my child hadn't died. I wish I had him back.

I wish you wouldn't be afraid to speak my child's name. My child lived and was very important to me. I need to hear that he was important to you also.

If I cry and get emotional when you talk about my child I wish you knew that it isn't because you have hurt me. My child's death is the cause of my tears.

You have talked about my child, and you have allowed me to share my grief. I thank you for both.

Being a bereaved parent is not contagious, so I wish you wouldn't shy away from me. I need you now more than ever.

I need diversions, so I do want to hear about you; but, I also want you to hear about me.

I might be sad and I might cry, but I wish you would let me talk about my child, my favorite topic of the day.

I know you think of and pray for me often. I also know that my child's death pains you, too. I wish you would let me know those things through a phone call, a card, note, or a real big hug.

I wish you wouldn't expect my grief to be over in a short period of time. I wish you could understand that my grief will never be over. I will suffer the death of my child until the day I die. Grief is a life long process.

I am working very hard in my recovery, but I wish you could understand that I will never fully recover. I will always miss my child, and I will always grieve that he is dead.

I wish you wouldn't expect me "not to think about it" or to "be happy".
Neither will happen for a very long time, so don't frustrate yourself.

I don't want to have a "pity party", but I do wish you would let me grieve. I must hurt before I can heal.

I wish you understood how my life has shattered. I know it is miserable for you to be around me when I'm feeling miserable. Please be as patient with me as I am with you.

When I say "I'm doing okay", I wish you could understand that I don't "feel" okay and that I struggle daily.

I wish you knew that all of the grief reactions I'm having are very normal.
Depression, anger, hopelessness and overwhelming sadness are all to be expected. So please excuse me when I'm quiet and withdrawn or irritable and cranky.

Your advice to "take one day at a time" is excellent advice. However, a day is too much and too fast for me right now. I wish you could understand that I'm doing good to handle an hour at a time.

Please excuse me if I seem rude, certainly not my intent. Sometimes the world around me goes too fast and I need to get off. When I walk away, I wish you would let me find a quiet place to spend time alone.

I wish you understood that grief changes people. When my child died, a big part of me died with him. I am not the same person I was before my child died, and I will never be that person again.

I wish very much that you could understand understand my loss and grief, my silence and my tears, my void and my pain. BUT...I pray daily that you will never HAVE to understand 

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Poem that was submitted by Marilyn  / Robin Wessel (Cousin)

~To My Dearest Husband Chris~

It must be very difficult to be a man in grief, since men don't cry and men are strong no tears can bring relief.

It must be very difficult to stand up to the test and field calls and visitors so she can get some rest.

They always ask if she's alright and what she's going through, but seldom takes his hand and asks, "my friend, but how are you?"

He hears her crying in the night and thinks his heart will break and dries her tears and comforts her but "stays strong" for her sake.

It must be very difficult to start each day anew and try to be so very brave he lost his baby too...

Thank you for all your love and support.

Our memories of Kyle will last forever. 

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First Valentines  / Robin Wessel (cousin)


















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Missing you  / Robin Wessel (cousin)
Hey hanum man, sorry i havent wrote in awhile but i never know what to write without hurting someones feelings but i dont care anymore it all needs to come out now.
      You know the first thing im going to talk about is how are all doing.  Charles & Elek are getting so big!  Charles talks about you on a daily bases and Elek can point you out in a picture. Charles suprised me the other day he woke up and tols us that he wanted some cowboy boots. He wears them everywhere and he has to show them off to everyone.
       As for Jason he is doing good. I still cant get him to go to the doctors but i guess when he is ready he will go.  A few weeks ago he went over to a friends house and he got drunk, well there was this kid there that made him very mad because all the guy could talk about was how a 2 million dollar life insurance ment more to him than his own daughters life! And well you know what happened next!!  As for me I am doing good, especially now that the morning sickness has passed. Everyone keeps asking me what i am having but i will not know until April (around shelbys birthday). I'm hoping for a girl and i am determined that i am having a girl.  
    Now im going to speak my mind on court, when court started i got very upset with tim's lawyer cause he was talking about how his family sent letters stating that tim was a good guy and well respected. By who his mom, sisters, dad and the rest of his immediate family! You talk to anyone else and they will tell you diffrent. And no shit there going to say that he is a good guy. Tim has been lieing to them for so many years they dont know the diffrence between the truth and a lie.  No duh, his pshyciatrist is going to say that he did not think jail time would be a good thing for his client that is less money out of his pocket.  
      I hope his immediate family can one day see past the lies and understand that he deserved everything he got. I think he should have gotten more time, but the judge did give him the max on both charges. So I give the judge a high five on that and thank god the judge did not give him probation. I hope one day his immediate family will understand the pain that your mom, dad, and sisters will have to go through the rest of there life. Not only that but the rest of us will go through not having you around. 
         I just want o ask them all how they would be if  there only daughter, niece, or granddaughter lost her precious life due to someone else's actions.  How would they feel?  They would all be just as hurt and devestated as we are. No higher power in this world could control those emotions. I knwo I would have never been able to handle it like your mom and dad when he walked into that hospital the day you grew your wings.  They have more strength than i would have ever had!
    As for his sentence of 2 years in the nebraska correctional center I was releaved. I was so afraid that he was going to get probation. So the judge did his part & the rest is left for god to handle.  
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        As for you little man just keep letting me know when you are here visiting it gives me a little piece of mind. You better be keeping everyone on there toes up there just like you did down here!!  I love you very much and miss seeing your handsome face!!

Talk to ya later
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SENTENCING AND THE FEELING OF A GRANDMOTHER  / ANNA SMITH (GRANDMOTHER)
  TIM gets to have 30days of freedom to get things in order,  TO BAD KYLE didn't get the time to say GOOD-BY TO US.  If TIM was a MAN he would have asked to stand up and speak and  take responability for what happen to KYLE that day and for what
SHELBY HAS TO LIVE WITH THE REST OF HER LIFE, but TIM does not know how to tell the truth, all TIM KNOWS IS HOW TO TAKE(BE IT A LIFE OR TAKE FROM PEOPLE) the only person he cares about is TIM.  TIM can't even be a MAN and tell to truth about his MARRIAGE. I really feel sorry for his family to have a SON, BROTHER & UNCLE like him.
    ONE good things is I know for the time he will be serving his neice will be safe from him and out of danger.`I Hope someday he will grow up and tell the truth to his MOM & DAD before it is to late,  especially about what he said to SHELBY ABOUT WHAT WOULD HAPPEN TO HER IS SHE TOLD THE TRUTH (SHE WOULD BE HURT) What kind of a person would do that to a sweet 10yr. old little girl who had just been thru what she had that nite at the lake?  I truly believe that was goes around will come around, and that someday TIM will get his true JUSTICE IN LIFE.
  I have just ONE QUESTION, how will TIM FEEL when his GREAT
UNCLE is gone (and he can't get any more money from him) and 
what will happen to him when his MOM & DAD are gone and he has NO ONE to lie to about what he has done when he is out here in the REAL WORLD when he has to stand up and pay for his mistakes.  I'M NOT GOING TO HOLD MY BREATH. 
    ALL I know is that WE are a strong FAMILY and that WE will get 
through this time in our lives without our LITTLE MAN and we all
know that like GRANDPA MELVIN said was true AT THE  YOUNG AGE OF 8 THAT KYLE WAS A BETTER AND STRONGER MAN THEN TIM WILL EVER BE.   I feel sorry for his MOM AND DAD for covering for TIM his whole life if something goes wrong it has to MENTAL PROBLEMS , GET HIM ON PILLS AND PUT HIM IN THE HOSPTAL, WELL PAT AND ALLEN  it is time for TIM to grow up and be a MAN (IT IS CALLED TOUGH LOVE) something that KYLE WAS NOT ALOUD TO BECOME IF anyone takes this the bad well sobeit  but I'VE HAD THIS ALL BOTTLE UP FOR 8MO. AND NOW IT IS TIME FOR ME TO LET IT OUT.
  I do know that we are a strong family and we will be fine with the help of GOD and will be able to go on with our lives. BUT JUST REMEMBER KYLE THAT WE WILL ALWAYS HAVE OUR FUNNY MEMORIES OF YOU AND THAT YOU WILL NEVER -BE -FORGOTTEN -keep haveing fun with all of your new ANGEL FRIENDS AND KEEP US ALL IN LINE (YOU WILL HAVE YOUR HANDS FULL WITH THAT ONE HAHA) LITTLE MAN. WE ALL LOVE YOU TODAY JUST HAS MUCH HAS WE DID ON THAT DAY IN JUNE WHEN YOU GOT YOUR ANGEL WINGS.


         LOVE & MISS YOU SOOOOOO
          GRANDMA ANNA
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I'm sorry  / Unknown (none)
I am so very sorry for your loss. My prayers are with all of you. I watched the KHAS news on Feb 7th. I think that Tim should have to accountable for his actions especially for your loss. I am glad that he got 2 years in jail. (should have been hauled off immediately) There should be no appeal he appealed it down far enough, he should get life as he was not acting as a human being when your son died. But as usual Tim "gets away" with another crime once again. I have know his family for years and he has been in so much trouble and has gotten away with so much in his life. Every time he is arrested/caught or held accountable his mother gets involved and then she gets him to a "mental hospital or something similar" to avoid jail or prison, which is were he should be at.  This however is the final straw as far I am concerned. He murdered someone in front of his sister, and that poor child will never be able to forget the events of that day. Plus having to go to court and relive all of that over again. I am wishing and praying the best for your whole family and that through this all there is a positive outcome. Best wishes to all of you, thinking of you and your family often
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HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY KYLE  / Debbie Wengert (Kevin's Mom )

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sentencing and how I feel  / Marilyn Smith (Mother)
Yesterday was the day we got justice(somewhat)!When the judge said TIm had to go to jail for 2 years, He should of been hand cuffed and taken out, But no his lawyer appealed the sentence. Kyle did not get to appeal when he lost his life! Shelby did not get to appeal when she had to watch her brother die,nor did she get to appeal when she was yelled at for getting out of the water when She tried to help Kyle and he started to choke her. I thought he was to take responability for what happened, but I guess that was just another lie out of his mouth!  Every day we have to live with the unanswered questions of what happened that day  while others just go on with their lives. .For once in someones like I think they should tell the truth!  I wish they would just tell their lawyer why their marraige fell apart and not put the blame on Kyle! May be he should of been a man and not lied to his wife. My family loves Angela to death and feel sorry for all the crap she has put up with. Shelby said she wants to go spend time with Angela.  I hope his own family would just open their eyes and see what happened. Talk to Shelby about it. Shelby will not lie  about it. They all need to know the truth!  She is a very stong little girl and I thank her for what she tried to do. I will never forgive any one who has lied about this whole thing just to make them look better! I know this was a accident but someone has to be the adult! Now every day I have to live my life with out my "Little Man". Pictures and story's are not the same. We love and miss our baby with all our heart! Not a day goes by that we don't speak of him! We all miss those cute little dimples and those long eye lashes!. I really miss when we would have him take a bath for school and we would go in and find him sleeping in the tub! He knew how to  push our buttons. He was a true boy! He was a true boy, always finding trouble like Feb 14,2006. That is a day I will never forget!  Firetrucks, cops, Just because he was at the wrong place at the wrong time! Oh well things like this I miss. Now my life is not full of adventure, like when he was here! XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO Close

just remember  / Crystal Hester (friend of his parents )

i cant believe this has happened. i can only imangine the pain your family has suffered. i called and told bobby as soon as i saw it on the news. your little boy is the same age is bobbys little girl. i can only hope that your family is holding in there.  i do remember that you have a very close family.  so i am thankful that they are around to help you guys thru all this.  i sat and thought how i would react if this had happened to me and to be honest i did not want to even try.  i keep telling myself that if i had lost a child that i would try very hard every day to remind myself of all the happy times together and that he is still very deep in my heart. to remember that he would want you to hold it together for his sisters and to always tell them funny stories of when they were together so they would forget about how sad it was but to live his life thru them now.  hold your kids real close and never ever let them go.  sorry for your loss and i hope all is getting better.  love always crystal and bobby (bullet) hester.

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8 MONTHS  / Marilyn Smith (mother)
Kyle it has been 8 months since you got your wings. It don't seem that long. I hope we get justice on Wednesday. We went to the Monster trucks yesterday and it was not the same with out you! You always loved when we would take you! Dave bought a flag for you and all the drivers wrote thier name on it for you. When it warms up I will go put it on your grave.   We all miss you very much. Not a day goes by that we don't speak your name. How can we ever forget you. You had the energy that most people never have. You were on the go all the time. Never would stop for nothing. Dad is still having a very hard time with out you. He won't talk to any one about how much he misses you! He keeps it all in side like always! He seems to think that his busch light will ease the pain. He dont understand it is only covering it up and easing the pain a little. Well I have to go help Shelby do her homework. Remember I always told you all to do the homework when you came home from school,but she still don't listen! Love and miss you with all my heart! I really wish I could just turn back time or else wake up out of this nightmare!XOXOXOXOXOXO Close

8 mo.s  / Anna Smith (grandmother)
Dear Little Man,

It's been 8 months that you got your angel wings and flew away from us. It's been hard for all of us, but by taking 1 day at a time seems to make it bearable for all who it hit the hardest. Writing to you every morning for me is my way of keeping in touch with my little man. Every time we have sausage and biscuits I still double the sausage I remember how you like to eat just the meat.

Well little man in just 3 days we will fined out what is going to happen to him(what ever it is it will not bring you back). I  know but maybe some justice will be done and a forecloser will be made, but I just want you to always remember that you WILL NEVER BE FORGOTTEN.

Shelby needs a Big HUG from you. The girls at school wants toget at he they say things about what happened, that day. I wish that all of their parents could hear them and maybe that would all stop, but she has support and we'll get her through it. Danita said that she will take care of it, but she has to take care of her shoulder. Right!

After Feb. 7th everyone will be able to take it has it comes. Right! Mom and Dad are doing fine they miss you very much. Grandpa has to go to the V.A. Hospital for 2 days of testing this month. Do you think he will pass? HAHA

Makenz is still a little pill she says that she has a buggy man in her house, down in the basement. She says that Kyle Hanam came to her house to get them and take them to heaven to kick their butts, so they will leave her alone.Remember what you used to do in Grandma's bathroom (crossword puzzle book)? well your mom walked in on her reading a book doing her thing sounded a lot like you, so far she has not been calling U. Bruce that will come in a few years. HAHA

Well little man Please watch over all who will be going Feb. 7th to Alma and keep them safe. I have to finish getting dinner ready, so I will go for now. Always remember that you will always be with us and that you will NEVER BE FORGOTTEN.  

Love and miss you

Grandma ANNA

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Sorry this took so long.  / Alberto Gonzalez (friend)
This message is just for Kyle.  I couldn't beleive the news when they told me you were gone.  I remember all the fun we used to have and the trouble that we caused.  It is not fair what happened and 
I will miss the updates I get when I talk to Hector and Erin.  I hope you are happy where you are and that they find justice in your death I will always remember you and I will miss you.                 

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For Kyle & Family~Thinking of you  / Sandra~sis Of Angel Tony Santillan (memorial friend )
Here is a picture frame of Kyle,hope you like it. Keeping you in my thoughts & prayers. God Bless You 




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just stopped by to say hi  / Robin Wessel (Cousin)
Hey hanum man, Hows it going up there? I bet your having a blast up there! I feel really bad that I don't get the chance to lite a candle for you everyday bet do know that there is not a day that goes by that I do not think about you !  Everytime I look at your cousin's Charles and Elek I am reminded of you! It's just the little things they do, like Charles does this little dance that reminds me of you and Elek he loves to wrestle with everyone and that reminds me of you and he is not scared of anything just like you were not scared of anything. He is your moms little monkey! They sure do miss her! They don't see her much anymore because well I think its just because our lives have just gotten to busy. But they do talk about your mom & dad all the time!

  Jason and I are doing as good as we can, Right now we are having to deal with some stuff that is really stressing us out, but god does not put anything in our laps that we cannot handle. I have learnt alot from this though. You cannot trust anyone that walks through your front door and if I ever find out who did this to us I will never forgive them.  They will never know the pain that they have put us through. The funny thing is they thought they were doing the right thing by reporting us when acturally all they had to do was come to us and express there concerns to us we would have listeded! Buthat is the past and I will never have to worry about it again couse they will never have an excuse to make those calls again. I have learned alot about my self though and It is for the better!


 we are going to have another baby! This is our last one! The due date is Aug. 22! If it is a girl we will name her Kaylee Marie and if this is a boy he will be named Ryan Lee. We told your mom she could be in the room which that still stands.  I hope she is still planning on it cause I am still hopings shewill be there. Well anyway I have to go now cause I have to go find out about a job! It's driving me crazy being home all the time!

Love you and miss you more than words can express!

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7 months  / Mommy (parent)
It has already been 7 months and it don't seem like it. I wish we could have you here with us but the good die young. I always thought you were rotten to the core but god felt different about that. I remember last Feb. 14 when I went to the store and come home to Fire trucks and the cops at my house. you were always finding trouble. Oh well i wishyou were still here to keep me on my toes. What I was always mad about I only can laugh about now. Next month is when we go to court again. I hope Shelby can start put this behind her and start to go on with her life. We all miss you and love you very much. Christmas was not the same with out you to complain about what you got. Baby if we could only have you back with us. When we found out we were having another baby I did not see how I would be with 3 kids. Know I wish I still had 3 kids. I was very happy when you were born and very sadd when you died. Hope you are enjoying all your angel friends! LOVE AND MISS YOU WITH ALL MY HEART!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Close

Smith Family  / DJ

Happy new Year! Just checking in on you all. Expect great things for 2007. Many answers to all your questions will be revieled this year and he will relieve much of the unknown. Although it may bring you anger, it will bring you much needed comfort as well. Gods timing is right on track for 2007.  Remember, Whenever it becomes to much to witness lift up your hands ( he WILL be there ) . I'm sure kyle sends his love as well as mine.  

With Heavens love,
WWJD

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Just wanted to say Hi  / Robin Wessel (Cousin)
Hey buddy, Just stopping by to say hi and let you know that I am still thinking of you.  Wanted to get the chance to write you alittle note before I wont be able to for a while.  Like I told you before I am having a baby! We are still not sure of when the due date is though. Jason and I have finally agreed on a Girls name We are going to name her Kaylee but we have not agreed on a Middle name yet. Jason does not want to use EllenRae Celeste he wants to go with something shorter, but we have like 8 months to decide on that.  We still havent decided on a boys name yet, But we do know that we are going to use the middle name Lee! Well I just wanted to say Hi and We Miss you And love you bunches!!

Robin
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