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TO MOM FROM KYLE / ANNA SMITH (GRANDMOTHER)Read >>
TO MOM FROM KYLE / ANNA SMITH (GRANDMOTHER)
DEAREST MAMA I see how much you miss me and wish I weren't gone. I took a part of you with me the day GOD called me home. Please try to understand DEAR MAMA that we're not that far apart, for I'll be forever near, because I have your heart. I know there's times you feel there's no reason to go on, you wish you could be with me and you have been ALL along. Just because I went home and I'm in the Masters hands DOES'T mean I'm not still with you, Beside you where I stand. Please try to understand DEAR MAMA' that I'll ALWAYS LOVE YOU SO. I can't stand to see you hurting so ther's something you should know, each time you feel the sunshine upon your face I'ts me smiling down upon you and touching you with GOD'S sweet embrace. Each night your sad and lonely and the tears you can't control, I'M right ther beside you and I never will let go. GOD told me to tell you that he knows your pain inside, for he lost his SON too, upon that cross he DIED. He wasn't trying to hurt you by calling me home so soon, there's just plans that he had for me that no one else could do. I want to THANK YOU DEARST MAMA, for all you gave to me but most of all,I thank GOD because you're the BEST MOTHER one could be. So each time you think of me and tears fill your eyes,when you fell like giving up, just look up to the skies, Life on Earth is hard I know but you must be so strong for I'LL be forever with you until GOD calls you home. I loved you from the start and I love you still, please don't give up MAMA for it's just not in GODS will, I never will forsake you I'll be there everyday, I'LL hold you in my ANGEL WINGS and guide you on your way. Although I'm gonna go now, Remember it's not for long for I'll stand beside you through it all and I'm never relly gone. I love you more than words can say and I hate to know you feel so lost, just remember we will meet again cause,
Well Kyle it's been 10 monthes since you got your angel wings. Not a day goes by that your name is not spoken or something cute happens that you have said or done and everyone knows "that sounds like Kyle or thats like the time when Kyle...." You were my 'little man and my ROCK and grandpa's little HERO' that is something that will never change Now or EVER. Well Kyle you can see by my candles that Makenz is so much help and a very Independent little girl. She is so much like you in so many ways that sometimes its scares me. She is slowly getting away from watching her tapes so much. That is good. You know when she can tell you what is going to happen next that she has watched it way to much. HAHA We are going to have Easter dinner at mom and dad's house this year and Danita asked if I was going to make Jello eggs. My answer was NO but I'm going to make the Bunny Jello, Devil eggs, cupcakes and who knows what else. HAHA Shelby is doing a lot better. Thank you for watching over her. She really needs to know that you are fine and that she did all that she could do that day at the lake and that she needs to move on with her life and that you will always be with her NOW and FOREVER. Danita is doing fine too. She holds everything insode. She will be fine just as long as she don't come across Timmy. I hope that she can open up about her feelings before she comes across Timmy or poor Timmy. She has a lot to say to him and she will mean every word. MOm and Dad are doing a lot better. We all are doing okay one day at a time but it still hurts like hell knowing you're gone. We all know that its not forever and that someday we will all be together again and that you went first to help get things ready for us but it still not fair but no one ever said that life is fair, RIGHT. Someday justice will be done and Timmy will start to serve what his time. I guess its all in god's hands and that is the one person that he really has to answer too. Well little man I had better go for now but come to Sunday. I have all my Easter baskets for all my grandchildren to make up and yes I have one for you too. I'll take it to your grave in the morning along with Grandma Bev and Grandpa Royal's baskets. No matter what the city does little man I'll always see to it that your grave will be decorated for all Holiday's that was something the family always did and it will be a family thing that will stay that way be it at Grandma's house and my loved ones graves that is my promise to all of my loved ones. Later little man you will never be forgotten. Love always and forever, Grandma Anna P.S. Please be with all of us and keep us on our toes. I know it is a big job but I know you can handle with all of your angel friends.
Smith Family Heaven / Angel
Let it be know! Kyle was a great addition to the world. A child is born pure of heart created by GOD and given to loving parents. Although Kyle's time was short he definitely left his mark on the world and has returned to be with Jesus in heaven. Make no mistake! you WILL be reunited again. Kyle was given wonderful loving parents for his short stay (GOD knows all about you, he created you) and he has lived a wonderful life, and yet will never have to go through all the pain humans do growing up. He has completed his journey (pure) and has been reunited with Jesus in heaven. (If you don't belive in GOD then maybe you havn't gotten IT yet.) GOD IS real and so is his promise. Kyle hears your requests and complies. Keep speaking to him like you have been. As for Tim, Judgement Day comes for all of us. Let the one TRUE JUDGE (GOD) decide when the time comes. Until then, Smith family, live life with GOD and tell the story of your LITTLE MAN. Never forget him, and know he is always close by in your heart. GOD bless,
9 months / Marilyn Smith (mother)
Kyle it has been 9 months since you got your wings! It does not seem that long. Not a day goes by that we don't speak of you! We all miss and love you alot. We are still waiting for some one to grow up and be a man and go to prison. When I called the other day he had yet to do his Appeal papers. Why drag this out any longer? I hope he is happy that he can go on with his life while we all suffer! When he was to take responsability he opened his mouth just to have another lie come out! I wish people could see just how bad we feel on the inside. We all look like we are doing just fine on the out side, but what is going on on the inside is what no one will ever know. There are many days when I just stay home and cry, the pain is not getting any better, but I'm doing the beat that i can. As for the girls Shelby talks about you every day, Wishes you were here to play with her. Danita she just keeps it all inside,When she gets on your web site she doesit when we are all in bed. She cries when no one else can see her,She is being very strong but I know how she feels about court and if she had her way she would just go take care of things her self. Dad he don't show any feelings. He tries to be a big man and keep it all to him self. May be the reason I have such a hard time is I carried you for 9 months while every one else just had to wait. I never dreamed I would ever loose one on my children. This is the worse pain that I can think of. Every day my heart just dies a little more. I want to be with you son, I miss you. I miss all the crazy things you use to do. I miss you having to sleep with us. All the thing that drive a parent crazy I wish I could have all again. Love and miss you with all my heart! XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO Close
Thinking of you and your precious angel / Jo-Ann~mom Of Angel~Lauren Pacenta Read >>
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More stuff from the front page / Robin Wessel (cousin)
There’s a special angel in heaven That is a part of me. It is not where we wanted him right now, But where God wanted him to be. He was here just a moment, Like a night-time shooting star. And though he is in heaven, He isn’t very far. He touched the hearts of many, Like only an angel can do. We would have held him every minute, If the end we only knew. So we send this special message, To heaven up above. Please take care of our angel, And send him all our love.
We thought of you today, but that was nothing new. We thought of you yesterday and days before that too. We think of you in silence, we often speak your name, now all we have is memories, and your picture in a frame. YOUR MEMORY is our keepsake, which we'll never part, God has you in his keeping, We have you in our heart.
This teardrop stands for all the tears We've shed since you've been gone. The Cross portrays our faith that God Will help us carry on. The heart reflects the love you shared With Family and Friends, And we will hold you in our hearts With love that never ends. author unknown
In Loving Memory Of
A Dear Son
Something will remind me I never know just when, It might be something someone says And it all comes back again
The times we spent together The happiness, the fun, Once again I feel the pain Of lfe without my Son
It's said that time's a healer Im not sure this is true, There's not a day goes by Son That I don't cry for you.
Bereaved Parent's Wish List / Robin Wessel (Cousin)Read >>
Bereaved Parent's Wish List / Robin Wessel (Cousin)
Bereaved Parent's Wish List
I wish my child hadn't died. I wish I had him back.
I wish you wouldn't be afraid to speak my child's name. My child lived and was very important to me. I need to hear that he was important to you also.
If I cry and get emotional when you talk about my child I wish you knew that it isn't because you have hurt me. My child's death is the cause of my tears.
You have talked about my child, and you have allowed me to share my grief. I thank you for both.
Being a bereaved parent is not contagious, so I wish you wouldn't shy away from me. I need you now more than ever.
I need diversions, so I do want to hear about you; but, I also want you to hear about me.
I might be sad and I might cry, but I wish you would let me talk about my child, my favorite topic of the day.
I know you think of and pray for me often. I also know that my child's death pains you, too. I wish you would let me know those things through a phone call, a card, note, or a real big hug.
I wish you wouldn't expect my grief to be over in a short period of time. I wish you could understand that my grief will never be over. I will suffer the death of my child until the day I die. Grief is a life long process.
I am working very hard in my recovery, but I wish you could understand that I will never fully recover. I will always miss my child, and I will always grieve that he is dead.
I wish you wouldn't expect me "not to think about it" or to "be happy". Neither will happen for a very long time, so don't frustrate yourself.
I don't want to have a "pity party", but I do wish you would let me grieve. I must hurt before I can heal.
I wish you understood how my life has shattered. I know it is miserable for you to be around me when I'm feeling miserable. Please be as patient with me as I am with you.
When I say "I'm doing okay", I wish you could understand that I don't "feel" okay and that I struggle daily.
I wish you knew that all of the grief reactions I'm having are very normal. Depression, anger, hopelessness and overwhelming sadness are all to be expected. So please excuse me when I'm quiet and withdrawn or irritable and cranky.
Your advice to "take one day at a time" is excellent advice. However, a day is too much and too fast for me right now. I wish you could understand that I'm doing good to handle an hour at a time.
Please excuse me if I seem rude, certainly not my intent. Sometimes the world around me goes too fast and I need to get off. When I walk away, I wish you would let me find a quiet place to spend time alone.
I wish you understood that grief changes people. When my child died, a big part of me died with him. I am not the same person I was before my child died, and I will never be that person again.
I wish very much that you could understand understand my loss and grief, my silence and my tears, my void and my pain. BUT...I pray daily that you will never HAVE to understand
Missing you / Robin Wessel (cousin)
Hey hanum man, sorry i havent wrote in awhile but i never know what to write without hurting someones feelings but i dont care anymore it all needs to come out now. You know the first thing im going to talk about is how are all doing. Charles & Elek are getting so big! Charles talks about you on a daily bases and Elek can point you out in a picture. Charles suprised me the other day he woke up and tols us that he wanted some cowboy boots. He wears them everywhere and he has to show them off to everyone. As for Jason he is doing good. I still cant get him to go to the doctors but i guess when he is ready he will go. A few weeks ago he went over to a friends house and he got drunk, well there was this kid there that made him very mad because all the guy could talk about was how a 2 million dollar life insurance ment more to him than his own daughters life! And well you know what happened next!! As for me I am doing good, especially now that the morning sickness has passed. Everyone keeps asking me what i am having but i will not know until April (around shelbys birthday). I'm hoping for a girl and i am determined that i am having a girl. Now im going to speak my mind on court, when court started i got very upset with tim's lawyer cause he was talking about how his family sent letters stating that tim was a good guy and well respected. By who his mom, sisters, dad and the rest of his immediate family! You talk to anyone else and they will tell you diffrent. And no shit there going to say that he is a good guy. Tim has been lieing to them for so many years they dont know the diffrence between the truth and a lie. No duh, his pshyciatrist is going to say that he did not think jail time would be a good thing for his client that is less money out of his pocket. I hope his immediate family can one day see past the lies and understand that he deserved everything he got. I think he should have gotten more time, but the judge did give him the max on both charges. So I give the judge a high five on that and thank god the judge did not give him probation. I hope one day his immediate family will understand the pain that your mom, dad, and sisters will have to go through the rest of there life. Not only that but the rest of us will go through not having you around. I just want o ask them all how they would be if there only daughter, niece, or granddaughter lost her precious life due to someone else's actions. How would they feel? They would all be just as hurt and devestated as we are. No higher power in this world could control those emotions. I knwo I would have never been able to handle it like your mom and dad when he walked into that hospital the day you grew your wings. They have more strength than i would have ever had! As for his sentence of 2 years in the nebraska correctional center I was releaved. I was so afraid that he was going to get probation. So the judge did his part & the rest is left for god to handle. ` As for you little man just keep letting me know when you are here visiting it gives me a little piece of mind. You better be keeping everyone on there toes up there just like you did down here!! I love you very much and miss seeing your handsome face!!
SENTENCING AND THE FEELING OF A GRANDMOTHER / ANNA SMITH (GRANDMOTHER)Read >>
SENTENCING AND THE FEELING OF A GRANDMOTHER / ANNA SMITH (GRANDMOTHER)
TIM gets to have 30days of freedom to get things in order, TO BAD KYLE didn't get the time to say GOOD-BY TO US. If TIM was a MAN he would have asked to stand up and speak and take responability for what happen to KYLE that day and for what SHELBY HAS TO LIVE WITH THE REST OF HER LIFE, but TIM does not know how to tell the truth, all TIM KNOWS IS HOW TO TAKE(BE IT A LIFE OR TAKE FROM PEOPLE) the only person he cares about is TIM. TIM can't even be a MAN and tell to truth about his MARRIAGE. I really feel sorry for his family to have a SON, BROTHER & UNCLE like him. ONE good things is I know for the time he will be serving his neice will be safe from him and out of danger.`I Hope someday he will grow up and tell the truth to his MOM & DAD before it is to late, especially about what he said to SHELBY ABOUT WHAT WOULD HAPPEN TO HER IS SHE TOLD THE TRUTH (SHE WOULD BE HURT) What kind of a person would do that to a sweet 10yr. old little girl who had just been thru what she had that nite at the lake? I truly believe that was goes around will come around, and that someday TIM will get his true JUSTICE IN LIFE. I have just ONE QUESTION, how will TIM FEEL when his GREAT UNCLE is gone (and he can't get any more money from him) and what will happen to him when his MOM & DAD are gone and he has NO ONE to lie to about what he has done when he is out here in the REAL WORLD when he has to stand up and pay for his mistakes. I'M NOT GOING TO HOLD MY BREATH. ALL I know is that WE are a strong FAMILY and that WE will get through this time in our lives without our LITTLE MAN and we all know that like GRANDPA MELVIN said was true AT THE YOUNG AGE OF 8 THAT KYLE WAS A BETTER AND STRONGER MAN THEN TIM WILL EVER BE. I feel sorry for his MOM AND DAD for covering for TIM his whole life if something goes wrong it has to MENTAL PROBLEMS , GET HIM ON PILLS AND PUT HIM IN THE HOSPTAL, WELL PAT AND ALLEN it is time for TIM to grow up and be a MAN (IT IS CALLED TOUGH LOVE) something that KYLE WAS NOT ALOUD TO BECOME IF anyone takes this the bad well sobeit but I'VE HAD THIS ALL BOTTLE UP FOR 8MO. AND NOW IT IS TIME FOR ME TO LET IT OUT. I do know that we are a strong family and we will be fine with the help of GOD and will be able to go on with our lives. BUT JUST REMEMBER KYLE THAT WE WILL ALWAYS HAVE OUR FUNNY MEMORIES OF YOU AND THAT YOU WILL NEVER -BE -FORGOTTEN -keep haveing fun with all of your new ANGEL FRIENDS AND KEEP US ALL IN LINE (YOU WILL HAVE YOUR HANDS FULL WITH THAT ONE HAHA) LITTLE MAN. WE ALL LOVE YOU TODAY JUST HAS MUCH HAS WE DID ON THAT DAY IN JUNE WHEN YOU GOT YOUR ANGEL WINGS.
I'm sorry / Unknown (none)
I am so very sorry for your loss. My prayers are with all of you. I watched the KHAS news on Feb 7th. I think that Tim should have to accountable for his actions especially for your loss. I am glad that he got 2 years in jail. (should have been hauled off immediately) There should be no appeal he appealed it down far enough, he should get life as he was not acting as a human being when your son died. But as usual Tim "gets away" with another crime once again. I have know his family for years and he has been in so much trouble and has gotten away with so much in his life. Every time he is arrested/caught or held accountable his mother gets involved and then she gets him to a "mental hospital or something similar" to avoid jail or prison, which is were he should be at. This however is the final straw as far I am concerned. He murdered someone in front of his sister, and that poor child will never be able to forget the events of that day. Plus having to go to court and relive all of that over again. I am wishing and praying the best for your whole family and that through this all there is a positive outcome. Best wishes to all of you, thinking of you and your family often ~unknown~ Close