-A Message From our Son-another poem that I found on the internet  / Robin Wessel (cousin)

A Message From Our Son

I may be gone but please don't cry
My heart will always stay.
I loved you all so very much
And we'll meet again one day.

But my son how can I live
Without the sadness in my heart?
I miss you every single day
Ever since we've been apart.

I want my loved ones all to know
That the Lord is by my side.
I am safe and peaceful now
And my soul has never died.

But dear Kyle lifes not the same
We struggle day to day.
Our family circle is broken
Since the day you went away.

Please dear family don't be sad
Let your hearts fill with love
For someday we'll meet again
All together in Heaven above. 

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-I Promise-  / Robin Wessel (Cousin)

I Promise


I promise I won't cry forever
But I need to just today.
I promise I will remember
How to live and how to play.

I promise that I'll dry my tears
When the heartache goes away.
I promise that it won't take years
But I need another day.

I promise that I'll live my life
As you would want me to.
I promise when I'm facing strife
I'll face it straight and true.

I promise I will endeavor
To do the best I can each day.
I promise I won't cry forever
But I need to just today.

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6 months  / Robin Wessel (Cousin)

Hey hanum, No one can believe it has been 6 months since you left us to get your angel wings.  I dont have much to say right now cause I do not want to hurt anyones feelings. The tears have slowed down and now the anger has set in for me.  Maybe I should not feel this way but I do. So instead I am going to leave some Poems for you that I found Last night.  Love you and Miss you Bunches and Bunches.
 
Love 
  Robin

For Kyle

It goes without saying that we miss you so
We've been brokenhearted since the day you had to go.
We know you are in Heaven with angels by your side
But instead of a 4-Wheeler you use wings to take a ride.

You left us far too soon, part of God's plan.
And we know that someday we will understand.
We also know that someday we will meet again
Until then enjoy yourself with your angel friends.

The memory of you will be kept locked in our heart
One day we will join you, never again to be apart.
Until that day comes, please our darling hanum
Take in the beauty of Heaven with happiness and joy.

And when we're all together and all worries left behind
We'll enjoy the Heavenly pleasures that God has divined.
Until that day's upon us our love will not abate
And please our darling Kyle, meet us at the gate.

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6 MONTHS  / MARILYN SMITH (MOTHER)
Kyle it has already been 6 months since you grew your wings! I still remember the phone call from that night just like it was today. I do not even feel like celebrating Christmas this year. I have found a lot of things that I know you would love to have. I have a lot of Jr. items to put up in your room for you. I wish I could just hug you and never let you go. When you told us you did not want to stay in Hastings I wish we would not have made you! I feel very guilty for this. I no longer have you because I made you go. I am very sorry son. You was only 8 years old and you would be suprised how many lives that you touched. I did not know that you were liked by so many. Your friends from Hastings are having a hard time with out you. The girls still have a hard time with out you. Daddy miss's his KILLROY. Grandpa told me how much he miss's you. Robin and Jason have done a awesome job with this sight for you, I don't know how I can ever thank them enough. I ordered you some ornements for the Christmas tree that have your name on them. Well Kyle please come down and give all of us hig angel huggs and kisses. we all miss you very much! Close

If I Knew  / Robin Wessel (Cousin)
Hey Hanum, I Recieved this really neat poem. I'm sure everyone will enjoy it. It was wrote for all those people that lost there lives on September 11th, but it is so true. Went to Grand Island today and found something that I knew you would have loved to get for Christmas. Wish you were here to buy it for you. Love and Miss you bunches and Bunches. Missing you alittle more everyday!!

IF I KNEW

If I knew it would be the last time
That I'd see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly
and pray the Lord, your soul to keep.

If I knew it would be the last time
that I see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss
and call you back for one more

If I knew it would be the last time
I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would video tape each action and word,
so I could play them back day after day.

If I knew it would be the last time,!
I could spare an extra minute
to stop and say "I love you,"
instead of assuming you would KNOW I do.

If I knew it would be the last time
I would be there to share your day,
Well I'm sure you'll have so many more,
so I can let just this one slip away.

For surely there's always tomorrow
to make up for an oversight,
and we always get a second chance
to make everything just right.

There will l always be another day
to say "I love you,"
And certainly there's another chance
to say our "Anything I can do?"

But just in case I might be wrong,
and today is all I get,
I'd like to say how much I love you
and I hope we never forget.

Tomorrow is not promised to anyone,
young or old alike,
And today may be the last chance
you get to hold your loved one tight.

So if you're waiting for tomorrow,
why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes,
you'll surely regret the day,

That you didn't take that extra time
for a smile, a hug, or a kiss
and you were too busy to grant someone,
what turned out to be their one last wish.

So hold your loved ones close today,
and whisper in their ear,
Tell them how much you love them
and that you'll always hold them dear

Take time to say "I'm sorry,"
"Please forgive me," "Thank you," or "It's okay."
And if tomorrow never comes,
you'll have no regrets about today. 





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We miss you  / The Gonzalez Family (cousins)
Hi Kyle.  We miss you so much.  Your gramdma showed me the web site today and I will make sure that Alberto gets a chance to write you a letter himself when we go to Mexico.  You will never know the amount of people whose lifes you touched. We love you so much and I hope that you are happy in heaven with Grandma and Grandpa. We will always remember you.  Give em'  Hell kid!!!! Close

SON / MOMMY
SON

Early awakenings
Expectations
Of quickening
Instead, tears
Fill my eyes
Swelling my womb with
Emptiness.
Son, you are missed.
Son, you are loved.
Yearning to hold you,
Anger acquiesces
To acceptance,
You are with
angels now.




















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DON'T TELL ME  / MOMMY
Don't Tell Me
Please don't tell me you know how I feel,
Unless you have lost your child too,
Please don't tell me my broken heart will heal,
Because that is just not true,
Please don't tell me my son is in a better place,
Though it is true, I want him here with me,
Don't tell me someday I'll hear his voice, see his face,
Beyond today I cannot see,
Don?t tell me it is time to move on,
Because I cannot,
Don?t tell me to face the fact he is gone,
Because denial is something I can't stop,
Don't tell me to be thankful for the time I had,
Because I wanted more,
Don't tell me when I am my old self you will be glad,
I'll never be as I was before,
What you can tell me is you will be here for me,
That you will listen when I talk of my child,
You can share with me my precious memories,
You can even cry with me for a while,
And please don't hesitate to say his name,
Because it is something I long to hear everyday,
Friend please realize that I can never be the same,
But if you stand by me, you may like the new person I become someday.
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THE CORD  / Marilyn Smith (Mother)
The Cord
We are connected,
My child and I, by
An invisible cord
Not seen by the eye.

It's not like the cord
That connects us 'til birth
This cord can't been seen
By any on Earth.

This cord does it's work
Right from the start.
It binds us together
Attached to my heart.

I know that it's there
Though no one can see
The invisible cord
From my child to me.

The strength of this cord
Is hard to describe.
It can't be destroyed
It can't be denied.

It's stronger than any cord
Man could create
It withstands the test
Can hold any weight.

And though you are gone,
Though you're not here with me,
The cord is still there
But no one can see.

It pulls at my heart
I am bruised...I am sore,
But this cord is my lifeline
As never before.

I am thankful that God
Connects us this way
A mother and child
Death can't take it away!
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Happy Thanksgiving  / Marilyn Smith (mother)
Son Today is Thanksgiving and I don't feel I have a lot to be thankfull for. I have lost the only son I will ever have. Every one misses and loves you to death. I hope you enjoy this first big holiday as a Angel. I know that we will get thru it but it is not going to be easy. After lunch we are going to go decorate your grave for Christmas. I hope you enjoy all the things we do to keep you a part of everthing. Most everyone is coming to the community room for lunch. Like always there will be more enough food to feed a army. I am making deviled eggs for you and I will take some out to your grave. I will never for get last Easter when Bobbie told you to eat as many as you could at one time. Some things about you still make me laugh. Yesterday I told Cousin Robin about how you gave away the gift card she gave you for christmas. She thought it was funny. Like always you think about others instead of your self. I ordered some very special M&M's that have a saying on them just for you. They cost a lot of money but you are worth more money then anything in this world. I wish you could be her to tell me what you want for christmas this year. The girls like always want everthing. That must be were you got that from. Well I have to go make your eggs. Just remember Baby I love and miss you more then any one thinks. I am the one who carried you for 9 months. Hugs and Kisses son . Miss you with all our hearts! Close

First Thanksgiving in Heaven-2006  / Robin Wessel (Cousin)
This is your first Thanksgiving in Heaven,
It's my first one to be without you near;
Thank-you so much for each memory you have given,
God is with me and then dries each tear.

We will be together again someday, dear,
That time between us may not be long;
Each thought of you does give me cheer,
Angels surround me and keep my Faith strong.

You gave your love to everyone here on earth,
Today, I would love to whisper in your ear;
Telling you how God's Love buoys me on with Hope,
I miss you, but enjoy Thanksgiving Day in Heaven, dear.
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THANKSGIVING PRAYER  / BETH Dickerson (Jimmy's Mom )

Dear Father who art in Heaven...
Please join our family on this Thanksgiving Day
and bless each one as we sit down to pray
as we remember those who have joined you above
so dearly missed and deeply loved.

Please provide us strength on this Thanksgiving Day
Bless us with memories of those faraway...
Please grant patience to family and friends as we grieve
and help us reach out to others who are bereaved.

We give thanks to you on this Thanksgiving Day....
For Your presence in our lives each and everyday.
For Your comfort, guidance, and never ending love...
And for taking care of our loved ones...in Heaven above.

As we light this candle on this Thanksgiving Day...
And it glows in memory of those in Heaven today....
May their lights always shine down on us and give us light...
And may we feel their presence along with yours tonight.

May the peace and tranquility of this Thanksgiving Day
Be an everlasting light within each of us along the way...
Lets bow our heads and give our Thanks to God above.
For our blessings, whether on earth or in Heaven above...
Amen
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Bad things about Kyle  / Marilyn Smith (Mother)
I don't know who in their right mind light 2 candles to my son and signed them One from me and the other from his Aunt Brenda. Brenda and I we both love Kyle to death and we never would be glad he died. If this is how you feel then put your own name on there and not people who loved him. If you have a proplem with Kyle then stay off this sight. the worst day of our livesOn June 4 2006 when Kyle passed away was the worst day of our lives, and I don't know of any one who was happy. We have enough problems dealing with his loss and don't need people like you!  This is how all the family feels. Close

A letter to my Kyle  / Anna Smith (grandmother)
To My Dearest Kyle,

Grandma is trying to move on, but it is so hard knowing the Thanksgiving and X-mas is coming up and you won't be with us this year. I know that you are being well taken care of, but it is so hard. 

Makenz is keeping me on my toes all the time. She sure has a little of you and her mixed. Boy do I have my hands full, but I wouldn't have it any other way. We are going to put up the lights on Sunday. It will not be the same this year because we will be short a set of little hands that was always willing to heop Grandpa and Grandma.

I'm so proud of your Mom and Dad, and your sisters.for the way they are doing. Grandma is just a BIG CRY BABY!!!!!!. Aunt Laura got you a Turckey so g-ma and g-pa fixed it up and took it out the your grave, along with items from everyone else.  X-mas Mom got you a tree and g-ma has more items to put out there for you.Your grave is so beatiful with all the items from everyone that loves you so much little Man. After the holidays it sure will get a lot better for g-ma. Then  all I have to do is wait until Feb. 7th. Maybe then when that day comes and goes g-ma will be better with the whole deal of losing my grandson at a VERY YOUNG AGE. I know that you are being taken care of and I see your bright star every nite. It is so pretty and very bright just like you are and will always be. 

When Feb.7th comes and goes than g-ma will be able to say everthing, that I have bottled up inside of me. We all know that your parents did a great job raising you and your sisters, so what ever anyone thinks  they should have there own kids and see what it is like to raise children, good bad and then losing one of them.

Well honey g-ma has to go for now, but I just want you to know that I think of you always and my love for you is still as strong today as it was the nite at the hospital when I took you in my arms to hold you for the last time.



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My promise to you Kyle  / Christy Smith (Aunt)

Kyle,

I made you a promise that I would be there for your parents and your sisters. I plan on keeping that promise. You ment so much to so many people. Not a day goes by that I don't think of you, and them dimples. Now we only have Kenzer to make fun of for haveing them. I hope that everyday you hear her talk about her Kyle. She loves you and misses you more than you will know. When we go and visit you she gives you kisses and talks to you as if you were standing right besides her. I know that you are having fun in heaven with all of you new friends, haveing a fishing competition with grandma and grandpa. Kenzer had fun trick-or-treating. She kept wanting to go see Kyle and give him some candy. I hope you and your friends enjoy the gifts that are left for you. In Feb. the whole family will feel lots better. This may sound crazy to some people, but I am glad that I seen you shortly after the accident and that you paid me a visit at work when I was feeling down. Knowing that you are fine and happy makes me feel lots better about losing you so suddenly. You know that the Holidays are crazy for the whole family, but we will manage to have fun and always think of the crazy little boy that should be here driving us crazy wanting to eat all the PICKLES AND MORE PICKLES than anything else. Like before Kyle I promised to take care of your silly and crazy sisters and your parents. You know our family is crazy, but we are there for each other no matter what happens. Enjoy your new friends and remember your loving family loves you and we miss you soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much. 

I LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANY ONE WILL EVER KNOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


LOVE YOUR AUNT CHRISTY

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FLY / Jason Wessel ((cousin))

Eyes full of tears, Hearts full of sorrow,
You were here today & gone tommorrow.
Such a gift of God sent from heaven above,
Now your watching over us so freely like a dove.

Never in this lifetime will there be, a child who is loved, loved as much as thee.

You were Daddy's little partner, his true pride & joy, Mommy's lil' helper, Her precious baby boy.

We will all continue to ask, but never will we know, Why such an innocent child never had a chance to grow.

So much pain & grief comes with the word "goodbye", But now your in a better place, So spread your wings & fly

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I Laid a Rose on your Grave Today  / Robin Wessel (Cousin)
I Laid a Rose On Your Grave Today,
But that’s not what I wanted to do.
I wanted to tickle you, play with you,
laugh with you, read to you, sing to you, too.

I laid a rose on your grave today and said a little prayer,
I wished so much with all my heart,
that you were here, not there.

I laid a rose on your grave today,
The tears falling from my eyes.
I will never understand what took you away
and left us with broken hearts and sighs.

I laid a rose on your grave today.
Forget you I can not do.
Each day, each week, each month
Your Grandma says “I Love You."
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Just wanted to write a note to you  / Robin Wessel (Cousin)
Hey Kyle,
    Well I changed your background music cause I thought your site needed a change. I think after 5 months of the same song was enough. I really hope everyone enjoys the song as much as I do. Just wanted to write you a short note and wanted to let you know that I am thinking about you!! I MISS YOU BUNCHES AND LOVE YOU BUNCHES!! Hope you are having fun up there with all your new angel friends and Please watch over your mom while she is in Lincoln and watch over your sister she misses you alot!!

Love you always and Forever
Robin

P.S. I told your boyfriend he was gay and he slapped me with your purse!!!(that is still Jason's favorite joke that you told him) I got something for you! Close

Every child is a gift...  / DJ
"Every child is a gift... created by the hands of God and given to touch the world with His love." 
    It is better to celebrate the time you had than to mourn the time you don't have. Know for yourself the truth. Klye brought so much happiness and love to your family, and everyone he met in the eight years of his life. He lived the best years of a persons life and yet never had to experience any of the horrible things we see every day that he would have seen growing up. It is hard but I assure you Klye is dancing with the angels. God keeps his promise.
"The streets will be filled with boys and girls playing there." Zechariah 8:5
   

Heavens love,
xxx
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5 Months  / Robin Wessel (Cousin)
Hey Hanum Man, 
      Just thought I would write you a little note, It has been 5 Months and 1 day since you recieved your wings. It still feels like yesterday that you were at my house on your bike talking to Jason and looking all bummed out cause it was your birthday and you were bored.  I can truely say this has been the longest 5 months of my life. Your mom, dad and sisters have gone through so much since that day. There have been so many court days (there are still two more court dates on November 8th and One in January) and other stuff going on that I don't think any of us have truley been able to sit down and really go through the greiving process. I know that I have not and I dont think I really want to cause I want to continue to think that this is just one big dream and hopefully I will wake up sometime soon. Dont get me wrong I know that this is not a dream and the pain will never get easier. Your sister Shelby has been so brave with all the stuff she has had to go through with court.  I am very proud of her. This event will always sit in the back of my mind and feel like it was just yesterday. I think that the reason this hurts so much is because you were just a child. I have questioned god so many times cause I could not understand why he allowed this to happen to you and your family, but then I realize that this was not gods plan it just happened. When you fell in that water he did not plan for you to die but you did. He just knew that if you lived you would not have been the same boy that we all loved so very much, and he knew that that would hurt us so much more. So he chose to give you your Happy, health life up in heaven where you could watch over your sisters and the rest of your family. I know that Charlie is really young and he does not understand what happened to you, all he knows is that you are gone in heaven and you are watching over him from up above. Sometimes he even tells me that you are coming back, but when you ask him when he says that he does not know.  Now for Elek He really does not understand either. He really doesnt know who you are except for the pictures that he see's , and I think he even see's you at times cause he will start crying and pointing at the air. I will make one promise to you Kyle I will never let Charlie forget you and when he gets older I will tell him all about you and how you were an awsome cousin. I will also do the same with Elek!! And if I have anymore children they will know who you are. Well Kyle I need to be going for now, We love you and miss you bunches and bunches.

Love you always and Forever
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